So I joined Jazzercise..don't laugh. It's not your Mama's exercise class believe me. I remember going with my mom & watching leg warmer wearing middle aged women dance to "Let's get Physical", this is so much harder than that :) I am hoping by adding the Jazzercise 2x a week to my recumbent bike at home I should be well on my way to changing this body & soul that I am so unhappy with.
Exercise is something I am not a big fan of. It has to be fun for me to stick with it. This group of ladies seem to be fun, we laugh, we cry, we struggle thru it. At times when everyone is in sync. It looks like a dance team..lol. Just one more step towards a better healthier me.
I felt great after class, tired but energized. Only 4 months till June!
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Monday, January 31, 2011
My Amazing Makeover - Day 1
Welcome to Day 1 of My Amazing Makeover. Let me introduce myself, my name is Vanessa. I am 36 years old, I am a full-time working mother of 2 small girls, a wife & I just started my photography business - Street Style Photography.
I am also overweight. I have struggled with my weight issues for quite a few years now. I have always been sensitive about my weight even as far back as middle school, and of course in high school, however when I look back at photographs taken then, I would love to look like that again. I even went as far as having breast reduction surgery after high school, because I looked heavier than I was & the constant harassment from guys, because they were so large (a surgery I later regretted, for many different reasons).
Anyway ~ I had lost weight about 9 years ago, right before I met my husband. I was running 3 miles a day, eating right & for the first time in my life I felt good about myself. I met my husband, we had a baby, then another baby & here I am. I have high blood pressure, high blood sugar & overall feel like crap! I always say I am going to make a change, every week is the week it's gonna happen. I usually get 1/2 way thru day 1 before I get aggravated at work, or the kids or the one time a year my husband actually wants to take me out for dinner & BAM! The diet is out the window. I have very little support & no one to be accountable to if I screw up (other than me & I've been letting myself down for years). I need to be embarrassed if I don't work out or eat bad, but who is gonna call me on it. I decided to blog about my journey, for many reasons.
#1 ~ I needed to journal my experience. Track my progress & to remind myself of where I am mentally. I am depressed, I am sick of feeling so down, so insecure & so disgusted.
#2 ~ There is a chance that someone might see this & say "Wow - that is exactly how I feel" & maybe my journey will give someone else the strength to start one of their own & we can help each other through whatever stands in our way. Starting our own support system.
#3 ~ I love to talk about my journey, my hopes, my goals & whatever else pops into my head. My husband on the other hand, doesn't want to hear it (hence the lack of support system =p) So I can get on here & type till my heart is content. If someone wants to read it great, if you don't then no biggie, but I will still have released whatever & will feel better. Therapy.
I am aware of the possibility that no one other than me will ever read this & that's ok. However, there is a chance that someone is gonna follow my journey, someone is going to check in & see how far I've come & I am not going to be embarrassed, because this time I am going to succeed & I'm gonna journal how I did it.
I am also overweight. I have struggled with my weight issues for quite a few years now. I have always been sensitive about my weight even as far back as middle school, and of course in high school, however when I look back at photographs taken then, I would love to look like that again. I even went as far as having breast reduction surgery after high school, because I looked heavier than I was & the constant harassment from guys, because they were so large (a surgery I later regretted, for many different reasons).
Anyway ~ I had lost weight about 9 years ago, right before I met my husband. I was running 3 miles a day, eating right & for the first time in my life I felt good about myself. I met my husband, we had a baby, then another baby & here I am. I have high blood pressure, high blood sugar & overall feel like crap! I always say I am going to make a change, every week is the week it's gonna happen. I usually get 1/2 way thru day 1 before I get aggravated at work, or the kids or the one time a year my husband actually wants to take me out for dinner & BAM! The diet is out the window. I have very little support & no one to be accountable to if I screw up (other than me & I've been letting myself down for years). I need to be embarrassed if I don't work out or eat bad, but who is gonna call me on it. I decided to blog about my journey, for many reasons.
#1 ~ I needed to journal my experience. Track my progress & to remind myself of where I am mentally. I am depressed, I am sick of feeling so down, so insecure & so disgusted.
#2 ~ There is a chance that someone might see this & say "Wow - that is exactly how I feel" & maybe my journey will give someone else the strength to start one of their own & we can help each other through whatever stands in our way. Starting our own support system.
#3 ~ I love to talk about my journey, my hopes, my goals & whatever else pops into my head. My husband on the other hand, doesn't want to hear it (hence the lack of support system =p) So I can get on here & type till my heart is content. If someone wants to read it great, if you don't then no biggie, but I will still have released whatever & will feel better. Therapy.
I am aware of the possibility that no one other than me will ever read this & that's ok. However, there is a chance that someone is gonna follow my journey, someone is going to check in & see how far I've come & I am not going to be embarrassed, because this time I am going to succeed & I'm gonna journal how I did it.
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