Welcome to Day 1 of My Amazing Makeover. Let me introduce myself, my name is Vanessa. I am 36 years old, I am a full-time working mother of 2 small girls, a wife & I just started my photography business - Street Style Photography.
I am also overweight. I have struggled with my weight issues for quite a few years now. I have always been sensitive about my weight even as far back as middle school, and of course in high school, however when I look back at photographs taken then, I would love to look like that again. I even went as far as having breast reduction surgery after high school, because I looked heavier than I was & the constant harassment from guys, because they were so large (a surgery I later regretted, for many different reasons).
Anyway ~ I had lost weight about 9 years ago, right before I met my husband. I was running 3 miles a day, eating right & for the first time in my life I felt good about myself. I met my husband, we had a baby, then another baby & here I am. I have high blood pressure, high blood sugar & overall feel like crap! I always say I am going to make a change, every week is the week it's gonna happen. I usually get 1/2 way thru day 1 before I get aggravated at work, or the kids or the one time a year my husband actually wants to take me out for dinner & BAM! The diet is out the window. I have very little support & no one to be accountable to if I screw up (other than me & I've been letting myself down for years). I need to be embarrassed if I don't work out or eat bad, but who is gonna call me on it. I decided to blog about my journey, for many reasons.
#1 ~ I needed to journal my experience. Track my progress & to remind myself of where I am mentally. I am depressed, I am sick of feeling so down, so insecure & so disgusted.
#2 ~ There is a chance that someone might see this & say "Wow - that is exactly how I feel" & maybe my journey will give someone else the strength to start one of their own & we can help each other through whatever stands in our way. Starting our own support system.
#3 ~ I love to talk about my journey, my hopes, my goals & whatever else pops into my head. My husband on the other hand, doesn't want to hear it (hence the lack of support system =p) So I can get on here & type till my heart is content. If someone wants to read it great, if you don't then no biggie, but I will still have released whatever & will feel better. Therapy.
I am aware of the possibility that no one other than me will ever read this & that's ok. However, there is a chance that someone is gonna follow my journey, someone is going to check in & see how far I've come & I am not going to be embarrassed, because this time I am going to succeed & I'm gonna journal how I did it.
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